Monthly Archives: June 2008

Until I get back to writing…

enjoy this video. (I’m a temporary hiatus). It’s nasheed which means it has a great taste without all of the calories. 🙂

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Ode to Jamaican patwa

I found this video on youtube and it made me realize how much I miss hearing pawta everywhere I go. That’s one of the reasons I miss South Florida. It’s like being in the Caribbean without actually being in the Caribbean. These days I don’t get to speak it as much as I like. But I oh how I love to hear it and oh how I love talk it when I do get the chance. Big all Jamaican, all Caribbean massive!

And another video (dis gyal mek mi laff):

A song that describes me…how did she know?

One day I’ll find relief
I’ll be arrived and I’ll be a friend to my friends who know how to be friends

One day I’ll be at peace
I’ll be enlightened and I’ll be married with children and maybe adopt

One day I will be healed
I will gather my wounds forge the end of tragic comedy

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time
Of being forever incomplete

One day, my mind will retreat, and I’ll know god and I’ll be constantly one with her night dusk and day
One day I’ll be secure, like the women I see on their 30th anniversaries

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time
Of being forever incomplete

Ever unfolding
Ever expanding
Ever adventurous and torturous
But never done

One day, I will speak freely
I’ll be less afraid
And measured outside of my poems and lyrics and art
One day I will be faith-filled
I’ll be trusting and spacious authentic and grounded and whole

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time
Of being forever incomplete

Alanis Morissette “Incomplete”

About blogging…

The other day I was having a conversation with a friend of mine about blogging and whether I have a responsibility to the people- you- who are reading what I write. She was saying that I do. I disagreed with her for the most part. I acknowledged that I have some degree of responsibility for the things I’m writing about but I also felt (feel) like I never posited myself as the resident mufti or advice columnist. I am merely sharing my thoughts, opinions, beliefs, and experiences with you. Sometimes my posts can be serious in nature, other times they are not. I argued that I didn’t start this blog so that I could create a bunch of mini-Jamericans. I’m not trying to control anyone’s mind…well maybe my husband’s but that’s another subject, lol.

From this blog’s inception I started out by saying that I knew my views would spark controvesry at times.  I felt (and still feel) the Muslim community is steeped in denial when it comes to certain issues. We do not want to talk about or deal with certain things so everyone falls back on the Islamic ideal. (Which in turn causes many of us to behave as if we are perfect; like we always behave in accordance to Islamic principles). Meanwhile, little is being been done to change the condition of our community. I’ve also felt (and still feel) that certain people’s voices have not been heard in the Muslim community. By addressing certain subjects on my blog I hoped to engage in an act of resistance. Speaking out by blogging can be a good way to do that.

After our conversation ended, I reflected on some of the things my friend said. I started asking myself some questions:

If the words I write encourage someone to go against their beliefs or principles am I to blame? And if so, what about their own personal responsibility? Choice? Where is the line between challenging someone to think and encouraging them to do something wrong?

Are certain subjects taboo or off-limits? If so, what subjects should I refrain from blogging about?

Should I censor myself when  blogging about an issue or subject? And if so, to what extent? Would I be bowing to the Muslim (or non-Muslim) status quo if I did?  Would my voice lose its authenticity? Would I still be “talking it plain?” 

At the same time, I am a human being. I have my flaws, I make mistakes and I have my shortcomings. (Some of which are apparent by now). I’ve made the wrong decision far too many times and I’m sure I will continue to make more bad decsions in the future.  I’m growing and constantly evolving. By the mercy of Allah, my views may change on a particular subject.  Will that affect the way you (as a reader) live your life? Should it? After all, you don’t know me and I don’t know you. But then again we are a community of sorts…

I do think about how one person’s actions (or thoughts) can affect other people. For example, my friend and I were talking about a sister we knew who was a hardcore niqabi. She was always the first person to speak about the beauty of hijab and niqab, how much she loved it and why other sisters should wear it. Unfortunately, this sister is going through some things in her life and she has taken off everything. Whether she liked or not her decision to “de-hijab” came as a blow to some of the sisters who were around her. It made them question some things about themselves and what they believed in. Should they though? If this sister is “going through some things” shouldn’t they allow her space to deal with her issues? After all, none of us are angels or prophets. We are human beings and sometimes human beings lose their way. The only consistent in life is Allah. But I digress…

Recently, one of blog readers told me that some of my posts are a bit risquĂ©. When I asked how so I was told that my music posts were a good example. Really?  Of all the things I say on here music makes the list? By now many of you know where I stand on the issue of music. Again, where I stand today may not necessarily be where I stand  tomorrow. Who knows, it may stay the same. But am I encouraging those of you who believe that music is haram to listen to it? NO. Absolutely not. If you believe music is haram, please know, it is not my intention to change your mind or recruit you to the “other side.” I think you should simply  ignore my music posts. (And I believe that’s what you have been doing anyway, right?) Or am I being unrealistic? Because sometimes its easier to engage in something that is haram (or you believe to be haram) when you see other people doing it. I don’t know…

So what is my responsibility? What is yours? And is there any cyber land? 

 

I Aint Trippin’

I saw this on Marvalus View’s Blog and I wanted to try it too.

If you would like to play:
1. Put Your itunes/ music player on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER WHAT!!!
Let’s GO!!!

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
Etana, “I am not afraid”
Okay… I sound crazy!

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Vivian Jones “Rebel Woman”
Yes! “Silent river runs deep.” Suh it guh.

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Nadine Sutherland “Come to Me”
Yeah, he’s gotta come to me! This is a song about a man who comes to his woman when he feels down, in the mood or whatever because he knows she’ll take care of him. Yeah, that’s me.

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Poetic Pilgrimage “Unlikely MC”
True. Muslim B-girls represent!

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Amy Winehouse “You sent me flying”
To fly? Or to be sent flying? That is the question.

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Kanye West “Flashing Lights”
Hmmm…not really.

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Tarrus Riley “Stay with you”
It’s good to know they’ll be around no matter what.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Tyrese “Lights On”
EWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Betty Wright “No pain, no gain”
Definitely!

WHAT IS 2+2?
Wayne Wonder “For my Love”
I don’t get it.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Guru feat Vivian Green “Fine and Free”
She is…indeed. So if there are any single Muslim brothers out there…

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Maroon 5 “Back at your door”
Yep! I hope to be back at his door soon, insha’allah.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Sy Smith “Conflict”
This has to be the most true song of them all!

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Althea and Donna “Uptown Rankin’”
More true than the last one. “See mi in mi heels and ting!”

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Buju Banton “Your Night Tonight”
Indeed it is.

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Johnny Osborne “Rock it Tonight”
They know I used to live in the dancehall. “Dub plate playin’ in the ghetto tonight”

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Tanya Stephens “Still a go lose him”
Uh…let’s hope not. This is a song about a wife who loses her husband because her husband is unhappy so his mistress is telling her she’s going to lose him not matter what she does.

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Macka Diamond “Lilly”
Suits my personality but I’d never want this to be played at my funeral. This is a song about a woman whose man has her in the house washing clothes, cooking, cleaning etc. while he’s out painting the town.

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Lady G “No tek talk”
LOL! “Wi nuh tek check, win nuh tek talk!” So I’m interested in shutting down people who want to talk bad about me. I’ll take it…

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Krosfyah “French Kiss”
Hehehe!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Ignition “I know carnival”
I do. (And my friends know I do). You can’t see me wukking up at home?

WHAT SHOULD YOU TITLE THIS POST AS?
Cherish “I Aint Trippin'”